Ever feel like you are barely hanging on?
I had one of those days earlier this week.
I actually sat down all ready to write about my
"horrible" day and how frustrated I was.
I found out we were further behind on our adoptions
finalizing then I thought. It really overwhelmed me and
made me sad. We can't move out of state until our adoption
is finalized. I mean technically we could but it would cost a
whole lot more in legal fees and time to get a new home study
and ICPC etc... We have just been playing the waiting game
in our lives in so many areas regarding selling our house,
building a house, which land to build it on, finalizing our
adoptions, hearing about whether
or not the kids qualify for adoption subsidies the list goes on.
On this particular bad day I felt
so overwhelmed with all these unsolved questions and with
house work and laundry and all the
errands I was behind on. I was also as always just feeling a
little too plump. I have been trying to loose a few pounds
before we go to Florida at the end of the month so I don't
traumatize the locals when they see me in a swimsuit.
Ok so back to the point
I sat down to write this whiny post and as I was editing the
pictures to put in the post my mood changed.
While I began
to type sweet Zoe snuggled in my lap and laid her head on
my shoulder. The mood was gone. I felt as if God was
shouting at me from the heavens saying "Rachel get over it!"
I mean I know God cares for me and wants to bless all of us
and truly cares for our burdens.
On this day I was just acting like a spoiled child.
I had forgotten in those moments of frustration that
his timing is perfect.
I would hate to rush anything and ruin his perfect
plan. I am beyond blessed. While I wait for the adoption to
finalize I am still their Mommy. I still get to hold and love
them unlike so many parents around the world desperately
waiting for their children to be in their arms. I get to live in
a beautiful house while I wait for someone to buy it and
then I will get to move to another beautiful house. And
unlike some dear friends who are suffering through cancer
and health uncertainties my family is healthy.
Seriously, I could do nothing in that moment but repent to
God tell him I trust him and his perfect plan and thank him
for this beautiful life he has given me.
Don't we all get a little spoiled at times. Caught up in the
very small details of the day and forget the big picture and
purpose of our lives.
Late this week I was catching up on some other blogs and I
Read it and you will immediatley realize how blessed you are.
And speaking of blessing lets continue to give to Anika and
bless her adoptive family with the funds to bring her home.
You can read about her here. Seriously even a $5 or $10
donation will make and difference and you won't even miss
it.
Read more...